Ego balancing and harmony.

Oh, the endless lessons of the ego. You can think of your ego as Earthly Armor, that you have been developing your whole life and even now, and until you "die". The ego is an identity of our own creation and is made up of many different beliefs that you acquire over your life. Everybody's ego works differently and it is incomparable. You can see your ego when you get mad, or jealous, or feel hurt. It is very contradicting because the anger or jealously you express, comes from an emotional experience long ago and a self righteousness so when we realized how we reacted to these feelings, we get very confused and often blame ourselves for acting in such a way because the ego is mostly made up of false beliefs. We will react so strongly because of our ego and then shift to not understanding it because of our ego. As a result, everything we express is blamed on ourselves by one of the condemning voices in our head. The ego will hijack the analysis and turn it into self criticism and blame. When this happens, it is impossible to see the root cause of your emotional dramas, as the ego reaffirms itself and hides in self criticism. So how do we balance this? fear not my child, for it is not impossible.

Balancing your ego with your soul and using it as a tool is all about honoring it and it takes patience, persistence, and faith. Do not expect to snap your fingers and have this happen overnight, you must be willing to face your ego and fall with it many, many times. What we don't realize is that whenever our ego comes out for an emotional warfare, it is a time to learn from it and not completely surrender to it. The first step is recognizing that we use our ego's as a defense mechanism and it is important to recognize the initial pain that made us build this false armor, but it requires for you to be able to step outside of yourself and look within and understand that we were only trying to protect ourselves.  Our ego's know how to take over a body quickly with negative emotions and vibrations so do not be upset if it takes you awhile to be able to do this(I still struggle with this!) But being true to yourself in this way will bring much healing and ease. When you feel your ego trickling on, never ever try to force it away. Doing this actually does the opposite and opens you up more to its negativity. Simply let yourself feel it and understand why you are feeling it, notice the way the anger/sadness/hurt/jealously creeps in, what color is it? where is it in your body? Once this is established, send pure love and light to this emotional ego wound and think about how you can work with it. Once your conscious mind understands all of your pain and why you react the way you act, blame can no longer take place. Once your conscious mind understands, it is not tucked away pain that was never felt and has no need to reside in your ego anymore. 

Balancing and working with your ego is a life long journey and the more you work with it and acknowledge it, the more it will sing in harmony with you & your soul. Sending you much love & light, always! XO